ardently

THERE ARE SMALL AND VERY MENIAL THINGS
 I ABSOLUTELY LOVE TO WATCH YOU DO, TO SEE YOU HAVE.
a myriad of random things.

THERE ARE THINGS I SHOULDN'T TELL YOU BUT WILL, 
FOR THE SAKE OF ROMANTIC COMPULSIONS.

it is intoxicating, darling /

1.  you pumping gas /
i have a habit of studying you through the rear view mirror
it's the specific way you stand and how you maneuver your hands.
i watch the way you look off distantly and lick your lips and breathe.  

2.  you in deep conversation with others /
i watch you talk and know that yeah, you're mine
and it's very possible that we belong to each other
on some other-worldly level that has nothing to do
with conversation or politeness or opinions.

3. the way you put your hands in your pockets /
you keep them there, showing off your wrists.
it changes the way your jeans hug your legs,
the veins in your arms pumping.

4. watching your hands when they touch me /
there i become less phantom and more girl: corporeal.
i'm less brain, mind-melty moments because of two hands and my skin.

5. watching your eyes take in information /
they have opinions, those two eyes, and the skin around them.
they have control.  but it is not just that you are powerful,
it is that you exist to hold a whole-worlds power but only over me.

6. watching you unconsciously hold this power /
 the power is warm. that is my favorite thing about it.
 it makes the air a song-singer. 

7. when your eyes are black, like railroad oil.
when your eyes turn crystal green, usually before you might cry.
when your eyes turn yellow and i find gold. i promise to keep digging.

8. watching the muscles in your back move like ripply water /
i want to swim and i want to go under
but all i can do is put my hands there and try to move with you. 

to move with you.