6/11

I am dripping.
not the way you want me to be dripping
but the way the vampires mouths do in the old movies
it's all black and white, so don't worry,

this blood is black
not red
so we can just hit ignore on our cell phones.
it's all just an orange juice commercial from the 40's so don't fret.
i am burning & i hate you.
  why? because you're not there when my fingers ask for you
you're not here when i make no sense

& you're not here when i make the most
no ones here to turn the words into movements, to say: okay
not here when my voice cracks, when it talks in tongues.
the religious folk would say "you're being touched by god"
and i'd say,  no, the gods are touching us through me
i'd say , listen, i'll translate
they say , turn that record on, sugar
they say, put your hands on me like the radio sounds
and those nuns would gasp and i'd be sent to the principals office
and they'd say, angry & squinty-eyed, "do you know why you're here, kerry?"
and i'd say, because i know more about beauty than beauty itself
and they'd sign some papers and i'd have detention
and the world would spin like it always does even when you ask it to stop
and then the story would end
because some stories end this way
without making any sense , without landing in the right direction
we spin like tops and those advertisements where the slinky's would
flop and barrel down the stairs and land where they pleased 

but the kid always looked excited
the kid had no idea.

2 comments:

aaron nicholas said...

"the religious folk would say "you're being touched by god"
and i'd say, no, the gods are touching us through me
i'd say , listen, i'll translate
they say , turn that record on, sugar
they say, put your hands on me like the radio sounds
and those nuns would gasp and i'd be sent to the principals office
and they'd say, angry & squinty-eyed, "do you know why you're here, kerry?"
and i'd say, because i know more about beauty than beauty itself"

amazing, i absolutely love this

kerrylily said...

thank you so, so much